I went on my first real bike ride today – and my legs feel like Jell-O! I definitely think it will be a good addition to my exercise routine. I finished with a green monster for breakfast.
Our kitchen is currently a disaster. No dishwasher means if I don’t stay on top of the dishes I get overwhelmed and then it turns into what it is now. Not pretty! However I did manage to make something to eat (besides a hotdog) yesterday. We had a Quinoa salad. It is not quite as good as this one here. But was definitely good. Hubby loved it as it is almost gone – he even took it for his dinner at work today. This would definitely be a good work lunch recipe as you can make it the night before (and while taste even better if you do).
Spicy Black & White Bean Quinoa Salad
- 1 cup rinsed quinoa
- 1 can black beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 can great northern beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 medium diced cucumbers
- 1/4 cup chopped red onion
- 1 jalapeno pepper, seeded and minced
- 1/4 cup chopped cilantro
- 1/4 cup EVOO
- Juice of one Lime
- 1 tbsp cider vinegar
- 1 clove garlic, minced
- 1 tsp chili powder
- 1 tsp ground coriander
- 1/2 tsp dried oregano
- 1/4 tsp salt
- 1/4 tsp pepper
- Bring quinoa to a boil with enough water to cover by 1 inch and a pinch of salt. Reduce heat and simmer for 15-20 minutes, until all water is absorbed and quinoa is light and fluffy. Remove from heat and fluff with a fork
- Dressing: In a bowl, whisk together oil, lime juice, vinegar, garlic, chili powder, coriander, oregano, salt and pepper.
- In a large bowl mix quinoa, black beans, great northern beans, cucumber, onion, jalapeño pepper and cilantro; pour dressing over top and stir gently to combine.
Source: adapted from vegangela
I’m not sure why it took me this long to finally post my Friday weigh in but without further adieu here it is.
Week gain/loss -2.4
Total gain/loss -11
One of the only reason I stuck with WW over just calorie counting is I looooove charts and graphs and anything that helps me analyze things – however this could quickly become a love hate relationship. I have seriously been lamenting over all this information for days now. Part of that has to do with the fact my weight has been fluctuating up and down and up an down and I wasn’t sure what I was going to see for my official weigh in this week. I was initially quite happy when I saw 153. That means I’m in the double digits for weight loss. However, at the same time all I can think of is how much I have to go, or the fact I am now at my “heaviest” weight from the first time I lost weight, or other negative things. I know that I should celebrate the milestones I’ve hit – but it is hard. I never thought I would be at a point in my life where I would have this much to lose. For some reason this time celebrating the small stuff is harder than I thought. When I previously lost weight I was elated when I lost 10 pounds. Of course when you have less to lose 10 pounds looks a lot more significant. Anyone else struggle with this?
Now on to goals!
- Track Everything
- Don’t go over points
- Average at least 15 AP/week
- Run 3x/week
- Walk the dog 5x/week
- Core work 2x/week
- Blog 3x/week
- Get out of my snack rut
- Track measurements on 7-25
I do see a correlation between the weeks that I track everything and weeks that I skip days and weight loss. However some of my “non-tracking” weeks have been around that time Aunt Flo is about to pay me a visit and I believe that has some effect. Time to take better notes on my weigh-ins about that. Anyway – I don’t think that should be too tough for July with the exception of Hubby’s 10-year class reunion at the end of the month. Number 2 however may be more of a problem. I have been consistently going over points – I’m still losing but I am aware that will not happen forever.
The next 4 have to do with my activity goals – I am finally getting active again yay! I have gotten 2 runs in this week and did one of my core workouts. I also try and do my yoga for runners video at the end of my runs – unfortunately that only happened once so far – but should happen again tomorrow. Walking the dog has been lacking this week. I was going to walk him tonight but it will have to get about 10 degrees cooler (at least) for him to survive. Huskies don’t like the heat. Also core work – I am doing this to avoid becoming a run-aholic. Not in the sense that I run so GD much but more in the fact that its all I do (activity wise). Also now that I am the proud owner of a new bike (thanks hubby) I think I might try and bike once a week – but that is not an “official” goal.
As food goes my goal previously was to cook a healthy meal once a week. However that just really comes naturally to me. Of course I haven’t done anything yet this week in fact I have had hot dogs for dinner the past two nights. Yes I am aware they are bad for me but the taste so damn good! Part of my problem is the kitchen. We don’t have a dishwasher and when the dishes build up it gets overwhelming for me. However I do have several healthy recipes planned for this weekend. However a bigger problem for me is I’m in a snack rut. I am proud of myself for finally eating healthy snacks but it’s been an apple in the morning and a yogurt in the afternoon as long as I can remember. I need some new healthy snack ideas. I am open for suggestions from anyone!
The real goal (taking measurements isn’t really a goal) is to blog 3x per week. I always have a lot on my mind and tend to write it down on scraps at work but never post it. So I am going to make an effort to do that.
Who has fun plans for the holiday weekend? I have a three-day weekend but hubby is working the weekend. Such is life of a pharmacist/retail store manager couple. However I’m hoping to get some good healthy meals cooked and some activity in!
So this blog has happy in the title – which is something I haven’t really addressed up until now. What does happiness have to do with a weight loss blog? Everything and yet nothing all at the same time? Is this really a weight loss blog – where does my true struggle lie? Is this a bunch of jibberish or does it make any sense.
So let me ask myself a question what came first my struggle get happy or my struggle with my weight? Easy – the struggle to get happy. I wasn’t always overweight in fact quite the opposite – I was tiny growing up. Hubby saw a picture of me when I was 12 and told me I looked anorexic (yes I know that’s not PC but it is what he said). I dug up my old pictures looking for photo proof – but really couldn’t find any. I did however get a good laugh from some of the pictures.
I started high school at about 110 pounds. I steadily gained weight throughout high school – not noticing or caring for whatever reason. Maybe because I always pictured myself as the tiny girl I was growing up. Before I left for college I finally saw what was happening and decided to start exercising and trying to eat healthier. Not as regularly as I should but I was. However – that all changed when I went to college – and I gained the freshman 15. Not to rehash my struggles with my weight – if you want to read that post see here.
My struggle with unhappiness started in grade school. I was diagnosed with ADD in 4th grade. I am not the picture of ADD or AD/HD (as the “proper” term is now) that anyone would think of. In fact quite the opposite, which is quite common in girls. One of the biggest problems this caused for me is the lack of social skills. Which led to me getting bullied in the 7th and 8th grade. Not to go into all the details but that still has a significant effect on my life today. I always find myself wondering what everyone is thinking about me and can manage to conjure up something negative in everyone’s mind for every situation. Me currently being overweight makes this all the easier for me to do. As even if I can’t think of anything else negative (which I most surely can) they can always think how ugly I am.
This habit has also led to an immense fear of trying or doing new things. Which leads me to back to my weight loss journey. After that lovely (or not) post I wrote on the 16th I did a whole lot of nothing. After my Vegas trip I decided to pull myself up by my bootstraps and get moving on this whole weightloss thing. I was going to track my food and start exercising.
So where am I now – well I’m tracking my food but I am struggling with exercise. Tracking my food is easy – I can do it and no one needs to know (although hubby does know). Plus I love trying out new recipes and cooking and am working at finding healthier ones. However exercise is something new that scares the hell out of me. It leaves room for people to judge me. Running – people could see me and lord knows what they might think and going to the gym – I’m scared to look stupid even walking into the damn place- where do I scan my card, do I just walk in, I went down the wrong stairs, people are going to laugh at me – these are just some of the many thoughts that run through my mind.
However, the tough reality of it is if I’m going to lose weight I need to exercise. If I want to be happy and functional again I also need to exercise. The only time in my life I successfully lost weight and kept it off was my sophomore-junior year of college. How did I do it? The Exercise trifecta – cardio, weight training, and stretching. No calorie counting, no diet. And now for the tie in: it was also probably the happiest I’ve been in a long time (aside from when I started dating hubby).
So the moral of the story is even if it scares me shitless (and yes I know my reasons are silly) I need to get moving.
My work weekends always kill my motivation to do anything. Its not so much the work but the on call. I never know when the phone will ring next and I use it as an excuse to do nothing. Not to mention it never fails when crap gets dumped in my lap late – I will be getting a call around 6:30 so the lack of sleep gets to me.
On the plus side – I have been steadily losing weight through the month of May. The down side? I am already losing steam. However a light bulb went on this week. The YMCA here offers a total fitness package which is essentially personal training paired with a before and after fitness test. I decided I wanted to do this so on Thursday the Hubby and I drove over to the Y to sign up. I let my anxiety get the best of me and instead of going in the building and doing what I came to do I pulled my normal “I changed my mind let’s just leave”. This lead to a HUGE fight. Leaving out the details it ended in a much needed conversation about seeking out counseling.
I’ve been reading Pam Anderson’s Book (the cookbook author – not THAT Pam Anderson) The Perfect Recipe for Losing Weight and Eating Great – and thats when it finally hit me the link between counseling and weight loss. I knew I had to get counseling and I knew I had to lose weight but I always managed to convince myself they were totally unrelated. We had to study The Transtheoretical Model of Change in pharmacy school we we were in our “smoking cessation” class. So to sum it up it was the trigger moving me from Contemplation to Preparation. So here’s hoping I don’t get in my own way again this week and I head to the YMCA and sign up.
Attempt number 673 to lose weight. Okay not really – but it has been an ongoing struggle. Especially since graduating from college in 2009, my weight has fluctuated between 145-165 over the past two years.
After starting college my weight had peaked at 153 pounds during my freshman year in 2003. Going back my sophomore year I decided to do something about it and over the next two years I started exercising regularly and got my weight down to around 129.
After my junior year I had knee surgery and had some issues academically that required me to take a leave from pharmacy school for a year. I used that time to peruse to my MBA and with my lighter class load did more partying than working out.
I’m not sure where my weight peaked that year – probably somewhere in the 150s. 2006 would have ben my “senior” year and after my friends graduating and returning to pharmacy school my lifestyle became a bit healthier. I started working out off and on again but not as consistently as I did previously. My weight dropped to around 138 pounds in 2007.
Around then I met my now husband and as we started dating I put on some weight on and fluctuated between 142-148 the next two years until graduation in 2009. I flirted with running and tried different diets during that time (calorie counting and weight watchers). Then we got engaged, and then I graduated. After graduation I had a very stressful year and put on close to 20 pounds. I started running again and got my weight back down.
However during this time I was also planning a wedding – and as that got more stressful on top of my job I stopped running. I also moved to peruse a new job. I gained and lost about 10 pounds before the wedding.
This brings us to now, 8 months after the wedding. My job is less stressful however socially we do not have friends here. Which led to some of the same patterns that caused me to gain weight the previous year. My eating habits are less than stellar and my exercise has become non existent.
Which lead me to where I am now, back in the 160s. So here is my effort to bring healthy eating into my life and exercise back into my life.